Coping with loss

Loss we all go by means of this emotion in life. Its a cleave of life and we learn and grow from it every day. Its that strong mischief or painful feeling In your chest. That ping in your stomach that Just wont go a focal point. Coping with a huge loss in your life Is one of most difficult social occasions you underside do. We have all experience this feeling In one way or another. I lately felt these tumbling emotions not too tenacious ago In October. When I lost my furrow my friend of fourteen years Blackly of disused age. I remember the first day I got Blackly he was so small and cute.He had a long black come up that looked like you are staring into the darkest of nights. His coat was soft to the touch like cotton or silk. Blackly eyes were so warm and friendly inviting you to favourite him. He came up to me and tried to Jump on me. But he fell off of me he was always a silly dog. He was the one I wanted out of that litter of puppies something slightly him made him stand out to me. It was a weird feeling but a good variant of weird. That moment in time when I got my first puppy changed my childhood forever and has taught me so much.Blackly has taught me so many things in life It Is hard to believe a dog could have such a huge Impact on one persons life. On a warm summers afternoon I was in the back kilobyte with Blackly. A nice warm summers afternoon a cool breeze drawing off through the air. Smelling flowers, barbeques In the still summers air, early In the afternoon. The cicadas In the trees making noise me raffish having a good time a boy and his dog. I lay on the pavement Blackly right wing by my side. He would always lay himself out spreading out all his legs. He was my minuscule black car flatter I used to call him.It seems kind of silly to be such crocked friends with an animal. Animals are so similar to people and have so such personality like us its unbelievable. I would always tell Blackly little secrets here and there about myself. How I used to suppose I dont know what life is all about and whats to come of my life. I was and scared what the future whitethorn hold for me and I go on being a silly ten year old boy. Talking to a dog but you know something as weird as It may sound. Blackly dumb where I was coming from and how I was feeling In this world.That dog had such understanding I pattern he was human for the looks he used to give me. He always did have this Brian your crazy look. so as life seems to go on forever In this world death Is here to tug It away from us. Blackly and me had so many fun adventures. From a simple walk around the block to me wash drawing him and even watching movies together. Blackly was getting really old Im nineteen and already in college having him for so long was such a great gift. I could tell he was going to leave me soon and I made sure I was by his side as much as I could be.But create and school kept me more busy and away. Then that day came in October which is so i ronic because Blackly natal day was October fourteen and it was October thirteen. He died before he turned fifteen years old. The day I came foot and saw that look on my moms face and that look in her eyes I knew what she was going to say without her maxim it. Ill never forget what my mom said Brian Blackly Is gone now but he walked around a little bit in the backyard and then laid back down fell asleep and never woke up. I never cried so much before Like that In my life.My moms words shattered me Into so many pieces. It was Like glass that is broken and you trying to find and fix all the pieces together. I went all over memories we shared together in my mind whirling around and around. I think that happened to him to before he left this world. He remembered all the fun times we had together. Blackly getting up and walking around the yard was such a shock to me. Pets dont care if youre perfect, rich, or different. They accept and love you for who you are as a person which is one thing Blackly left behind to me.It doesnt matter who oh are people should love you for the way you are no matter what. That is the biggest lesson I learned while I had Blackly in my life up until this point. I think all pet owners feel this strong deep connection with their pets. The one thing people should do more of is not to feel sad and lonely once their pet is gone. Your pet would never want you to feel that way I know Blackly wouldnt like it if I was sad. Losing an important part of my life my childhood has affected me greatly. I Just learn to control those strong deep emotions and expect in time they will heal over my saddened heart.